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Personal Confidence

Okay first of all, I am not an educated / trained psychologist of any sort; my thoughts and experiences are being shared here. Take it or don’t – up to you. I will only allow meaningful comments about this subject.

I have stated I am a wanna be actor.

Am in my ‘midlife’ so not some young and up and coming talented and beautiful person.
Not to say I am ‘fugly’ either and I do have some life experiences and ‘smarts’ to keep me afloat.

Now after a few courses, talking to people in the acting profession and watching You Tube videos about this subject I realize I have been presenting myself all wrong.

What I mean is; previous auditions either for a commercial, TV show and even an audition for a role in community theatre in Toronto (yes I am a proud Canadian) my intent was to be memorable and ‘stand out’ from the others that are auditioning. (doesn’t everyone there want to do that??)

So instead of being myself I tried to be ‘memorable’.

What I should have done is; deep down believe that I am worthy.

Thanks Wayne & Garth

Yes I said it, I AM WORTHY! (& so are you!)

If you want it as much as I do then yes you are worthy.

The Casting Director should be eager to see what I am going to offer. I should stop worrying about what they are thinking or if they like what I am offering.
“Can’t please everyone all the time” and must be myself.

I am a fully rounded and experienced attractive person that is determined, talented and smart. They need my work ethic in their production.

The best way to move forward is to believe that I am worthy & be confident in myself (not cocky or obnoxious) and look them in the eye after the audition and take their comments / adjustments and happily move forward.

It is not an easy world to get into (hell I have been on and off since high school)but when I do have a role and performance there is no other place I would rather be.
During moments in a performance, I feel so alive and the world stops to exist.

The words to give justice to the emotions in me when ‘in the moment’ are not easy to describe for me but feels so right to me.

Life theatre is so exciting and you have to be on your toes as things can go off the rails, and when they do the joy is getting everything back on track without the audience noticing.
TV and commercials are great too, as you have to know your place and come prepared as well.

Ahh, what fun.

OH YA and BTW; if you and I are ever in an audition for the same part – best of luck to you and hope I do get it. IF you are offered the role and I am not – congratulations this time. (1st drink is on me, as I am VERY interested in how you delivered your audition!)

We compete for the roles but we don’t have to hate each other.
There are many roles available; want to have more acting friends in my life.

Do you have any comments about this topic you’d like to share, please leave a comment in the comment field above, or if you would like to contact me directly – without leaving a comment, please fill the form below.

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Guest Blog Opportunity


Hi there, if you are one of the many that seem to ask me if I am willing to have a guest blogger provide content for my blog, here is your opportunity.

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IF you would like to have a blog entry on my site with your name associated to YOUR blog entry, all I ask you is to send me an email with your blog  content idea  (no content yet as we will need to discuss certain items as ownership / rights to the blog once it is posted to my site, but if we agree on items) you can have a blog entry off my site associated to you.

Not going to make this easy and there are many bots that seem to be able to get around the simple restriction I have placed on my blog.  You will need to email me (my email address is found on my webpage of www.rayulbikas.com) find my email, send me an introductory email indicating you are interested with your blog topic and I will reply to you.  Please be patient as I do have many things I do but I will reply to every email I receive regarding your blog post.

The subject line for your email to me to guest blog is below;

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I receive many spam emails daily & I do try to weed out & set up my autodelete to save your email with the identified (above) subject line.  Without the subject line above (example above ) I may not notice your email to guest blog on my site.

There will be no accepted comments on this blog feed but if you have an accepted guest blog you and me will discuss what comments you will accept for your blog.

Sound like fun?  Here you go, your opportunity to have a blog entry on the web all your own.

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Star Wars – The Force Awakens

Star Wars.  Yes I AM A FAN and not ashamed of that.

I have seen every one, loved them all and sure I will enjoy J.J. Abrams version(s) as well.

Remember when the 1st Star Wars came out, I was in grade school and remember talking to a friend Colin (hey man if you read this, get a hold of me via email I haven’t  seen you since you lived in the High Park area…) about it.

My father took me to see the 1st Star Wars – Episode IV. StarWarsPoster-IV AWESOME.
When episode I Star Wars Episode I

was released I took my father to see it.  He also mentioned before the movie started that he took me to see the 1st ever Star Wars and it is interesting that I took him to see this release.

Dad, when I go see the latest Star Wars release & before the movie starts I will look up and smile and think “wish you were here with me to see this one”.

I would LOVE to be in any Star Wars movie.

My acting experience is with plays on stage, 2 commercials years back and some modeling  but if I could make an appearance in a Star Wars movie, wow what a privilege that would be.

Mr. J.J. Abrams, would it be too much for me to have a small part in your next up coming Star Wars release?  I would be honoured and would give you what you ask as the character you need.  Not sure how to get in front of you to ‘audition’ so I will just put my ‘ask’ out on the web.

Saw the 1st 3 with my father, took dad to see the next three and to be in a Star Wars movie, that I would have to dedicate to my father. Would be even greater if dad was still alive to see that, but in my sole I would be proud and would give it all for dad to see.

Okay I apologize for reminiscing about my father, of course I do miss him, but anyway…

What do you think about Star Wars?  Like , love, hate etc and why?

Will not be posting any comments that are received unless they deal with Star Wars.

Looking forward to your comments…

Oil @ $56 – $57 a barrel…

Okay this is rude.

Oil is at $56-ish a barrel yet gas prices are stoopidly high.  WHY?  Greed, pure and simple.  The price of oil is low yet gas is at prices when oil cost MUCH more.  WHY?

I am tired of being bent over out of pure greed for items in life.  When is enough enough?  Not like the HUGE profits of the oil manufacturers are being directed to the better of humanity.  One can only have so much and own so many things yet they still keep bleeding us dry.

What are you thoughts on this??

Please comment.

Well now…

Hey there quick one for today.
Ever say something that you regret but cannot take it back no matter what you say?

Been there done that and I would like to say I am sorry and I’d love a another chance to be part of it.

What / where have you messed up?

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Asking for suggestions on topics

Hi, 1st of all many thanks for taking the time to read this or my other  blog post(s).  More thanks if you take the time to respond or reply.

This blog is a short one that consists of a question to my readership.

Many have reached out to me and asked about topics so I am asking you what would be a great topic you would like to read as my next blog post?  I am pretty versed in many things and enjoy writing so win win for us all.  If you want a particular topic please post a reply to this or reach out via my website @ http://www.rayulbikas.com/ and use the contact me form for suggestions.  Please fill in all necessary fields on my contact form or it will not complete.  You do not need to include an attachment but if you care to you may.

I do have anti virus software installed and any attachment will be scanned and deleted so please do not assume you can Trojan me.  (THIS is not to all but the occasional individual that enjoys that kind of activity – not nice or decent of you and you should be ashamed for trying on others)

Anyway, off my soap box now and looking forward to your replies.  I will post all worthy replies as I am able.

Read from ya soon!


Hey There!

Not sure if this will work or not but this blog post is seeking feedback, replies or comments from “My Readership ” about things you like to do. Please keep it clean, don’t want to have the cyber police that kind of interested in this site.

Today is Friday, and here in Ontario Canada spring is ‘just’ around the corner.
Are you a person that loves winter, sledding, skating, snow ball fights, “snow-people” building (ya I went there), ice fishing etc? – to my friends in the south no, ice fishing does not mean attempting to catch ice.
Me personally, must be an age thang – getting older – but I am not a winter person. Ya ok, sort of stoopid statement since Canada is my home but none the less, I am wintered out.
Warm weather for me, sunshine and a warm breeze is better than the biting cold of old man winter.
So many things to enjoy in the summer for example, I like to BBQ. Ya, anything BBQ’d. (as a smart a** years ago while making BBQ burgers attempted to BBQ some bacon – DUH not a smart idea. The bacon burnt up pretty darned fast.) Oh ya and bought a smoker last year and tried a couple attempts at smoking ribs and another attempt was wings. OMFG, ya they were good, mmmm now I am hungry.

Where the heck was I?…

Oh ya, summer activities for me.
Enjoy walking my dog in the summer much more than freezing my feet, and every other part of me during the cold months of winter.
Summer, it is awesome sitting on the deck in the backyard, warm sun in the sky, nice light warm breeze and a cold wobbly pop in my hand.
Easier to sit with family and friends outside in the summer, longer days.
Something else to enjoy is taking a cruise in my car with “two sixty air-conditioning” (for those not in the know – two sixty air-conditioning is opening 2 windows and driving 60 miles – ahem, an hour).

miles of smiles!
miles of smiles!

I love that.
Occasionally even turn on the car radio and listen to tunes but most time I enjoy the sound of my Borla exhaust – pure ear candy to me.
Good music to me is, well I am a classic rock kinda guy. Shows my age I guess.
Oh ya and there is a joy in cutting my lawn. Have a great sized yard and use the riding mower, that comes with build in beer holder – works perfectly ;).
Grass cuttin
drinkin & drivin?

You’re turn, what time of year do you like best and why?
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This was published in The National Library Of Poetry compilation titled “The Glow Within” in 1997.


There comes a time in everyone’s life
When all views have been irreversibly redirected
And not a thing is as simple, as simple as it once had been
The world is more complex always interchanging
The views of adolescence have become a simple and happy dream
All actions cannot be premeditated: One should not make a stand
Unless of course your decision is based on logical thought at your command
You experience and continue your life one day at a time
of course making some mistakes though hopefully none are a crime
To err is to be human and that should be known
Even the mighty Romans did, as history has openly shown
Hindsight is always 20/20 but this is an obvious fact
We are creatures of this dimension the past we cannot re-enact
So live your life and live it true
and this is all I have to say to you.

Ontario Canada licence plate sticker renewal charge

Hi, if you are like me and are a resident of our fine province of Ontario Canada I would like to bring to your attention an item regarding our licence plate sticker charge.

I am not sure how to form a petition so I will use my blog as a start. If you can help all of us Ontarians here please let me know.

As of September 2015 the yearly charge is increasing another $10.

Last year I paid $90 for my stickers this year I paid $98 and was told in September it is going up again. *Sigh*  WHY??

When I asked for the reason I was told to use these funds to repair & maintain the roads.   Thought the gas tax was to be in part used for that.

With all the HUGE revenues from the Ontario Gambling addiction from our provincial government, why can’t some of these HUGE profits be redirected for necessary provincial items.  Where are all these HUGE gambling profits going??

I feel we in Ontario are being taken to task too much by our provincial government, who have incorrectly or even dishonestly misused our tax dollars.  When is enough, enough?

Our premier MUST be informed that we will not accept any other increase in services as we pay much too much currently.  HST on home utilities is another item that SHOULD be removed but is ignored?  Why??

Please provide a reply here and I will attempt to update daily your comments – good or bad.  I am not like some members of the government that turn a blind eye to items they are not fond of.

I am looking forward to all replies.  BOT or spam replies WILL be deleted.

Hope I don’t regret this, my email address is rayulbikas@rayulbikas.com

PLEASE click at the top of the page LEAVE A REPLY and post your comment and a way to contract you for any possible follow up.  Many thanks.

To Audition

Mother Puss Bucket… Yeah a harsh way to start a thought this blog entry but IMO applicable.
I have done community theatre for a bit now and was looking to branch out and get back to the Toronto area. Noticed auditions for a theatre company in the east end of Toronto, for a play that I have already done but the catch for the audition was to have a 1 minute prepared monologue. I have never auditioned with a prepared monologue but am GREAT at cold reads and have been in multiple plays, a lead character with long dialogues, so no brainer right??

I found a monologue that worked and got it to memory pretty darned fast. Daily I would ‘perform’ this monologue to myself and proved to myself that yes I had it down cold. Before I went to sleep at night, I would ‘run’ it in my head and was very confident. Daily I would run it in the AM and it seemed perfect.
ON the drive to the audition I ‘performed’ it as I drove there a couple times and all was ‘poifect’.
I got to the audition and again this was for community theatre – not a paid gig – I freaking flubbed the monologue. AARRRGGGGG!!!
The director and other people I was auditioning for were very generous and let me go again etc.
Needless to say I did not get the role for the part already performed and strongly believe it was due to my lack luster monologue.
I did get some positive feedback from them and they loved my monologue choice as it had a ‘funny’ delivery and they laughed at the right places.
So yep, I goofed and am frustrated but I did learn a valuable lesson on what to expect in a monologue prepared audition – I plan to use this learned lesson for any future attempts.

My question to you is; have you had any similar auditions that you care to share? I doubt I am alone with this flub.
Let me know in “Leave A Reply” at the top.
Thank you.